When Things of the Spirit Come First

17 Jul

When death occurs, a most extraordinary thing happens: times stops and the only things that matter are those of a spiritual nature. In that, there is solace.

 

I have learned through my work and my personal nature, that I have to make room for “things of the spirit” to come first. Even when I don’t want to, I must. So on this weekend of the second anniversary of my mom’s death, I made certain that I drove out to our old church, “Our Lady of Grace” because I knew that if I didn’t I’d be sitting on blocked emotion. 

It’s weird how this particular church feels like one of the few tangible places I can go to remember my mom. I guess it’s because we spent so many Saturday evenings here in mass together. Over the course of my entire growing up. 

And it’s such a beautiful church (even though the photo is terrible as it is from my phone).

When I arrived, the church was open although they were cleaning it. The woman in the photo lovingly helps keep the church in order. It seemed fitting that the cleaning crew was there while I sat in the crying room and cried.

I wasn’t fully aware that I needed to cry until I drove into the parking lot. 

Today the yellow flowers bloom in my yard again. On schedule.

God and my mom wink at me. Reminding me that “things of the spirit come first.”

2 Responses to “When Things of the Spirit Come First”

  1. bg July 17, 2010 at 11:10 pm #

    Thinking of you today!

  2. Stephanie July 18, 2010 at 4:52 am #

    Beautiful, Lise. Thinking of you and the memories from two years ago. Love you!

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